I love riding my bike in the city even when it's 30 degrees out- It has warmed up to 65 + this week and the sun is shining so I will be back on my bike soon- Still fighting the cold- New developments------- I've been working on getting over my fear of working- It has something to do with the fear of failure and also panic- Sara is very supportive and I've come to terms with the fact that I will need to allow myself to fail without giving up- Recently I was property manager for my landlord but I quit that because I didn't like the job and my landlord is a knucklehead- But I'm not giving up on work- I want a "real" job and so I've applied to work in the Produce section at the Pick and Save Grocery store and have an interview on Tuesday at 1:00- It's part time work and I'm gonna take it easy and work within my limits- I may not succeed but I want to keep trying with the hope that I will eventually get over this psychological wall between me and success- I hope at some point I will stick somewhere long enough to work full time and feel successful- I've been doing this for years but I know I've never given it all I have and never given myself a fair chance- I have so much more in my life now to motivate me and I'm healthier than ever so pray for me because this is the number one biggest challenge in my life and has been for ever!
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